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i told the Cute Girl and Violet_Swirls that I think I'm nonbinary.

(Pause for context: I've been dating two people for the last few months. The Cute Girl is my girlfriend. Spacey_Queer is my datemate/loverfriend. Violet_Swirls is the Cute Girl's girlfriend/partner and my metamour/friend.)

i've hinted at this before, have talked about being genderqueer, have told the Cute Girl bits about dysphoria and not feeling like a girl all the time.

i was still scared to actually say it. couldn't make eye contact. stared at my food. no matter how many times i affirm and support others' identities, it's harder to believe it for myself. harder to believe that yes, this is valid. that these feelings are enough. 

i'm daring to believe in myself, and it feels good. 

i'm a woman, but I don't think i'm always a woman. I don't think I'm only a woman.
I'm never a boy or man.
I'm always a dyke, always a lesbian, always a person, always a Katherine.

I like gender-neutral and gender-inclusive language. I like they/them pronouns, and I also like she/her pronouns (as long as it's not only and always she/her). 

and i look impossibly sharp in a suit. (pics later, i hope)

ETA: slightly-blurry picture of me in my newest, sharpest suit: